Doubts

I doubt my feelings.
I doubt my emotions towards this matter.

what the hell i was thinking?!!!

i felt lost.
i felt lonely.
helpless.
hopeless.
who's blame?
no one but myself.

失宠的感觉很模糊，
很痛心，
很无奈。
我吃醋了吗？

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又觉得自己很一无所处了。
对世事一知半解，
读书从没让家人安心。
我不甘心，
真的不甘心。

到现在还有一些笨蛋问我SPM的成绩，
问我为什么以前不被IMU录取。
我笑他们不知，
放弃理想是多么困难的事！
不能当最好最出色的孩子!!!

今天又有XX刁难我了.dun feel like want to mention alrd.
=(
Finance leturer 给了很多assigments & qts.
Hard to do all these in a short time.
but i hope i can cope them well.
Believing my ability
no no.
i rather to believe my group members.
do well in our group work & presentations.

ignore all the nonsense & crap.

all attentions go to my business studies.

shut up & start study.

morons pls go away.

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对他有感觉。